Updated February 1, 2025
This is a Now page telling you what Iâm up to at this point in my life. It used to be a static page that Iâd update every so often; these days itâs an archive of all the Now pages I still have on file.
* February 2025
### Things almost seem normal again
Every now and then, when the moment is just right, I forget that I canât really _walk_ just yet. Like the morning of this photo, when I did my home-famous ballet jump, only to land on my left foot in a way that made me regret everything. It was the morning of my birthday gift to Anja: a taster class at Studio Pansa, where she hadnât been since her head injury. About three months ago, I triple-fractured my ankle. What came after was a transformation, both of the body and of the mind.
### At work,
Thereâs much to discover. Weâre full steam ahead, and there are plenty of unknowns to investigate, which means Iâve got my hands in the clay of delicious exploratory research. Iâm impressed with how capable we all are of committing to continuous research. Meanwhile, Gerimedica is growing, and itâs great to welcome new faces.
### Health-wise,
Iâm delighted by my progress. When I was on the ground behind the Royal Palace, tired head resting on the cobblestones, getting acquainted with the sensation of fracture, one thought hovered in my head: Iâll wake up in April thinking âoh wow, I can barely remember what that felt like.â Nothing could be further from the truth. Every day, I have at least half a dozen dĂŠjĂ vus.
Remember when bathroom visits were pistol squats? Remember when you couldnât walk into the patio at home? Remember when you couldnât walk to the tram stop? Remember when you couldnât walk and hold anything but crutches? Remember how your left leg was elevated two feet at bedtime, 7 weeks in a row? Physical therapy thrice weekly is doing wonders.
### At home,
Weâre taking on DIY projects again. Now that Iâm better able to help out around the house, Anja gets a much-needed break from it all. Also: home improvement! We recently began remodeling our bathroom, and boy, does it look sexy. I feel like I live in a Swedish hotel.
All Saints continues to grow. While weâre still a small bunch, familiar faces keep returning to join a church service, to attend morning or evening prayer. Recently, we hosted a Bible study at the most progressive queer bar in town. Shouting thoughtfulness across the table over loud music, and sitting with our eyes closed praying for each other felt so powerful. I love the community weâre perpetually becoming.
### What Iâm looking forward to
Iâm impatient to get back to ânormalâ, foot-wise, because I have things to do! Weâre hoping to make it to Paris in late April, and in the meantime, my excitement for pottery continues to simmer. Iâm looking to enroll in an eight-week ceramics course to better understand the process, and to get that coveted status of being eligible to become a studio member at Pansa.
* September 2024
Here I am with Anja outside Badeta, a local coffee place. We visited het dad in de Bijlmer this morning, and just finished biking back to Indische Buurt. I love riding my bike with her. This is one of our micro dates: a little pocket of quiet time for coffee or ice cream. Itâs a good day.
### Work is slow but sweet
Iâm coming out of a slow period at work: projects wrapping up, establishing new objectives, reporting back on research. Iâm excited about something new, something to sink my teeth into. Something difficult, intricate, substantive.
In the meantime there is the never-boring project of being the best coworker I can be. In the past few months, Iâve had one or two headaches about that, but I feel Iâm making progress.
### At home in Indische Buurt,
Anja, Lemonade, and I spent the Summer essentially hibernating in Amsterdam as we took care of a few health challenges. Itâs sweet to see we manage well together, but boy, am I excited to get out of the country for a solo trip in September. Iâll be visiting my sister and her children, as well as Godzilla.
Things are slowly picking up again after the Summer break. On Sunday, All Saints will celebrate homecoming. Iâve missed my church family. In addition, the most recent Omek Summit culminated in the founding of the Omek Innovation Lab, of which I am a part. Iâm looking forward to working with other Africans on digital and physical technology, and stepping into more of an R&D research role.
### Lastly,
I am stoked that Iâve successfully established a workout routine. Personal health challenges make it notoriously difficult for me to work out in a way thatâs healthy and sustainable, and after five months of taking it more slowly than I ever nightmared I could, I find myself embracing early morning workouts that really set the tone for the rest of the day. #Proud.
* August 2024
Here I am at the Gerimedica office, posing for an employer branding photoshoot. I usually donât use that whiteboard to draw anything, but that _is_ my desk in the background, and that smile is genuine. I gave a great talk at our periodic company update, and I feel Iâm doing good work that helps the company reach its goals. Itâs a good day. The days have been good.
### Right now, Iâm
* At home in Amsterdamâs Indische Buurt, where I share a small shoebox with Anja and Lemonade. We are childless child-free and enjoying every bit of it.
* Enjoying the alternation of sunny and rainy days
* Appreciating how the environment of Amsterdam allows me to meet new people almost everywhere I go
* Helping out at All Saints to make it the church I need it to be
* Working out again and loving it
* Making music in my spare time, and moving slowly as I set up my personal space for recording and writing
* Trying to bring my ideas and experiences into my writing more
* September 2023
### Existing
In Amsterdamâs finest neighborhood, de Indische Buurt, Iâm watching the autumn set in, and Iâm loving every minute of it. Apart from the scorching hot first week of September, everything about the weather tells me itâs time for _hygge, hygge, hygge_. Anjaâs back in school, which means Iâm settling back into a more structured hybrid work method. Wednesdays I spend at the office, and the other days I start off at home, and join my coworkers on-site on most afternoons. I love this, and the structure of it all is doing me good.
### Enjoying
Unlike what I had planned, I barely spent any time in the pool this summer. What I did continue to develop is my yin yoga practice, alongside a practice of guided and unguided meditation. To decompress in the mornings and evenings, piano practice remains a close friend. Iâm not making the progress I want to be making, but composition and singing help me regulate emotions stunningly well. Lastly, Iâm fond of the writing practice Iâve established. I publish on this website, write in my diary, and correspond via snail mail with a few friends.
I feel fortunate to be engaged in a number of communities where I meet people in which I can see myself. A few months ago, I discovered Bar Bario, a place by and for queer people of color. In addition, Iâm enjoying watching the community grow at All Saints Amsterdam, where Iâve joined the team as website person. In the margins of my thoughts, Iâm slowly putting together what the future of \[\[Queer Salon\]\] will be.
### Working
Iâm approaching 6 months at Gerimedica, where Iâm a senior-but-silly researcher and designer. The term _senior-but-silly_ is growing on me, because it helps me be humbly confident, and open to the whimsyâs of working with other people for a common good. Iâm impressed by the company Gerimedica has become, and I am even more excited about their current challenges than I was when I began. Some questions I ask myself as part of my daily work are: how can designers facilitate developers? How do I foster user-centered curiosity among domain experts? How do we organize a UX research repository in a strict GDPR environment?
### Learning
Through trial and error, I continue to find ways to be my best self, both at home and at work. Acknowledging the physical and mental realities of my life, Iâve been learning a lot about \[\[Neurodivergence in the workplace\]\], about the Polyvagal theory, and about a holistic, trauma-informed understanding of mental health. Practically, the books _The Smart but Scattered Guide to Success_, _Divergent Mind_, and _Living with Intensity_, and Elizabeth Filips and the Crappy Childhood Fairy have been sources of inspiration.
### Reading, watching, listening
_The History of Love_ takes my breath away, as did _Fleabag_.
* June 2022
### Iâm Zinzy Waleson Geene, Iâm in my mid-thirties and I have a penchant for casual web publishing
This website is a digital living room; a place where I think aloud, change my mind, and share slices of life. I think the Internet is a miraculous place, and believe we all have the right to own our stuff, and do so in a sustainable way. I suppose this means I like IndieWeb principles.
### I live in Amsterdamâs finest neighborhood: de Indische Buurt.
I share my life with Anja Waleson, a high school English teacher and new ceramics enthusiast. We live in a little shoebox with a petit garden. Weâre companions to puppy Lemonade, who may or may not have her own blog, letâs find out together.
### In my spare time I enjoy swimming, writing, making music, and painting
With generous donations from friends, I bought myself a piano for my birthday last year. Itâs a journey of rediscovering how I best learn, of what draws my attention, and of how music is the best mental health item in my toolbox. For entirely archival reasons, Iâm making a little EP with self-written songs this Summer.
Aside from music, I like to spend time writing, drawing, visiting the theatre, and swimming. With the puppy itâs a bit of an adventure, but Iâm hoping to settle back into my 6:30AM morning swim routine. Iâve missed swimming plenty over the winter, and it might be smart to find a good indoor pool for the later months of 2023. For now, Iâm pleased to know that Amsterdamâs finest outdoor pool is in our own backyard.
### Iâm embarking on a new professional adventure
After 2.5 years with the wonderful team of Leeruniek I joined Gerimedica in May. Onboarding there has been an absolute dream, and Iâve felt a part of the family since the moment I signed the contract. Iâve been given plenty of space to roam around, which means that I was able to hit the ground running, teaming up with my buddy Hans to improve not only product design, but also research and evangelism.
### Iâm mentoring again
After a hiatus, Iâm pleased to be back on the mentoring market. With 16 years of professional experience, Iâve found that my stories, many of which I had always deemed irrelevant to the world, can be of help to other people in the IT industry, specifically UX designers and researchers and product managers. If youâd like to book a session with me, you may do so via ADPList.
### Iâm doing my best to accept the ebb and flow of life
One of the thinking traps in which I routinely fall is the one where âY can happen when X is completedâ. We make a plan and God laughs. Iâve found that meditation helps me break this cycle. Iâve been devoting time daily to a meditation session. Itâs becoming easier to remember that even 10 minutes of practice is worthwhile, even when I keep comparing myself to monks on some Tibetan mountain.
### Iâm learning how to be kind to my neurodivergent brain
Through trial and error, Iâm finding ways to help myself best learn and deliver. One thing thatâs been helpful in this regard is accepting my tendency to think top-down rather than bottom-up. Itâs marvellous to see how much of the world assumes a bottom-up approach to learning, communicating, and creating. YouTuber Elizabeth Filips has been of great help on this journey.
* May 2022
* Iâm at Leeruniek building a sustainable design and product practice
* Reading Zadie Smithâs _On Beauty_, enjoying it so far
* Building a sustainable meditation practice by engaging in daily unguided sessions (which, as it turns out, is a lot more relaxing than finding the perfect guided meditation on the perfect app)
* Training my product management muscle by having difficult internal conversations about priorities
* Thoroughly enjoying mentoring on ADPList.
* April 2022
Itâs odd to think about what life was like in the Spring of 2021, or even 2020. Sure, we were definitely working on our little street-side garden, hoping to bring some color to the neighborhood, but other than that, not much was the same at home. We had a living room office, each with our own command center. Now, things are slowly returning to normal. Weâve installed new kitchen counters, getting our couch reupholstered. It feels like the house is becoming a home again.
At Leeruniek, Iâm focused on creating a user-centered mode of collaboration. Itâs great fun work with colleagues from outside the product team, and develop a shared understanding of what we and what we do mean to our customers. Part of this effort involves cultivating a culture of receiving and giving feedback, something I find very refreshing. Weâre also hiring in the product team and weâve already found a new engineer and a new designer. Iâm looking forward to exploring our new team setup.
* September 2021
Every year, without fail, I find myself longing for Autumn in the middle of Summer. Iâm looking forward to cups of tea, blankets, and rainy afternoons. Much like the characters in Youâve Got Mail, I love September because it reminds me of freshly-sharpened pencils and other things that prompt a back-to-school vibe. Iâm also looking forward to quilting a prayer mat.
What Iâm enjoying spiritual reflections on the Lectio 365 app, as well as CelinaSpookyBooâs dad jokes and her accompanying laugh. Iâve been reading about chronic shame. Iâve been playing around with Gatsby starters for a bit, and Iâm ready to begin building things from scratch.
* September 2020
* Finishing up five years of design at Airtrade
* Preparing for a new adventure in education technology
* Wondering how in the world I missed the lesbian memo on Girl in Red